Now that you are recognizing some of the specifics of pain as it is impacting you, it may be really helpful to work with someone else to understand how to move toward relief from this pain. It’s important to get expert support for chronic pain management.
It may be that the source of pain can be identified and eradicated. However, remember, it may be that the pain you are feeling may not go away, but you can change your relationship to this pain. You can put the pain in its place. You can decrease the energy that you give to it and decrease the energy that it takes from you.